In the beginning everything we felt was perfect…little by little the painting on the wall started to peel, the water in the fountain evaporated into thin air, the cracks on the wall and floor from under us started to take it’s toll on us. The worst was what I could not see nor have an inclination how hard this would be for you and me. The challenges wore us thin until there was a different you and me. We gave it one hell of a try and still we couldn’t recuperate from the challenges that left me changed; permanently. My past continued to replay when you weren’t able to change. But maybe friends we will remain. I am totally alone…there is no family to call my own…all the sacrifices were in vain…there was no attempt to enjoy the last few pieces that remained…you believed we were perfect for each other…I wasn’t totally convinced each time our tempers erupted like a volcanic eruption…the complication of our pasts kept getting in the way…but I am grateful that when the infused chemo flowed through my veins you were there to tell the oncology nurses…the needle is inserted wrong…preventing my vein from being destroyed…when I was diagnosed on May 5th, 2009 (Cinco De Mayo) with Cancer I didn’t think of death…I had already thought of and experienced death through the illness Carolis one year before…even after the second opinion the prognosis looked grim…but now, it’s as if it never happened…then the Sepsis on April 24, 2015 claimed another part of me…but I lived…no one has walked in my shoes…just as I have not walked in theirs…but we remember the story remains… 

A Past from NatsWritingsMind ©Natalie Keshing

Thank you Dear Lady Marsala for sharing. Heartfelt stories are what sustain us as we share and contribute to who we are and ultimately who we become. Each passage is a learning experience. I commend those who have faced the hardest challenges in life. I, myself starting in October, 2006 through a period of almost two years I was very sick in the middle of Los Angeles, CA. I lost a lot of weight and I was in extreme pain but mostly fear. I went to the best doctors at Cedars Sinai, UCLA, and Century City. I went through a number of very hard tests. Finally, I decided to return to my hometown because the future looked very bleak. Then I went to the Mayo Clinic and still it wasn’t until my second visit at my insistence that they perform an MRI/MRCP. The radiologist with his knowledge finally diagnosed my illness; Carolis. I assumed this was curable and you can imagine I was so relieved I finally knew what I was suffering from. There was or is no cure. But I embarked on a new journey in my life to fight like hell. I had cried and prayed all the tears I could. A year later it was Breast Cancer; triple negative, a very aggressive cancer. I contacted a doctor out of my state who taught me everything about hypnosis meditation. I religiously practiced it and I found that the power of my mind willfully helped me tremendously in addition to the chemo, radiation, and surgery. That wasn’t my last challenge in April 24, 2015 I was hospitalized due to a Sepsis Infection. I lived through that as well. Faith in yourself or God is an extremely empowering decision to face your hardest challenges with. Natalie Keshing, Editor and Chief at natswritings.com